Nervous

Tomorrow is the first of many big days. First GTS (group training session) starts off with a big 3-mile run early in the morning. I can not remember being this nervous about something in a long, long, long time. Since the worst case scenario would have me walking the full 3 miles, I really shouldn't be this worried. But I am.

As I have ticked off the days this week leading up to tomorrow's big event, I have gone through an amazing array of emotions, from nervous to scared and even downright terrified. Rationally, I can only come up with 2 reasons for this total uneasiness:

1) I have set a very ambitious and very public goal that, right now, still seems unachievable.

2) I have actually started making changes in my life (exercise and eating) that are pretty foreign to me.

With every good food choice and attempt at fitness I make, I am inching toward a lifestyle I have always dreamed about. Yet, for every inch of progress toward something new, I move further away from all that I know, all that I usually do, and all that is comfortable. There is something a bit scary about leaving the past behind, especially when it means moving to an undefined space.

Tonight I have to remember (and I have to apologize for the bad paraphrase) that "Courage is not acting in the absence of fear, but taking action in spite of it." Tomorrow I need to muster up a whole lotta courage and get the job done!

Until next time,
Lisa